Day 8: I have felt so good, I could say that I have no pain. I talked to my transplant coordinator today and told her this. She said that they have found this kind of recovery to happen mostly to women who have given birth. Since I have given birth seven times, I suppose I do fit into that category.
I thought today to take Tylenol instead of any hydrocodone. With this experiment I learned that probably I ought to keep taking hydrocodone for a bit longer. The pain wasn't too much, but took three doses to bring back to no burning.
I also had an epiphany. That's right, I have to have an ah-hah moment to put two and two together. This just may explain quite a bit why I have almost zero pain. You see, all of my pain, or burning, rather, is within a fist sized area on the right side of my belly. The rest of my belly is numb, similar to when a foot falls asleep. I would imagine that if I had full feeling, I would be feeling this same pain and/or burning across my whole belly. That would likely be harder for me to bear than just the small portion I now feel. Therefore, I must remember that my body is recovering and deserves rest and treated with tenderness, regardless of how I think I am feeling.
Tonight I made another discovery. (Here, I was expecting today to be a dull day, without reason to post.). The glue with which my incisions were sealed is starting to peel off. This will be interesting. I am a picker, but was warned not to pick at its edges. They itch. I hope angels will help keep my hands from doing so in my sleep.
Day 9: Maybe it is because of yesterday's "epiphany", or maybe not, but today I have been more aware of feeling of unease across my whole belly and emotionally. Neither is pain, just as if a warning. I hope it is not of pain to come, but just a warning to be aware and take it easy and realize that my body is recovering from a major event, and I need to be careful not to forget that and give it proper time to heal.
Day 10: Today was a nice day. I took a 15 minute walk outside with my mom. I made a goal to drink 8 cups of water. I made my goal. I noticed that the past couple of days the water no longer tastes nasty. I think possibly the medicine was altering my taste buds. Water tasted metallic. Not any more, thankfully.
I notice more feeling across my belly. I would even say it feels tender. The skin felt prickly, like my foot does as it wakes up from being numb-like asleep. Underneath the skin it aches, as though working up to an infection. I keep expecting it to look red or feel hot to the touch, but am both surprised and relieved to find neither. Hopefully it is only normal feelings of this stage of healing.
The itching at my incisions can get quite intense, but simply putting my hand firmly and gently over the area seems to satisfy it.
I have noticed that laughing, sneezing, coughing (although I still cough very gingerly), and moving positions on stomach muscle power hurts very little. I wouldn't even call it hurt. I might feel a quick twang when moving positions that says "I would have preferred you use your arms a little more still", and I can feel a bit of, I don't know whether to call it stress or tenderness, something in my stomach (when engaging in those other spontaneous fits) between noticing it and barely discomfort, just as it it's saying, "Hi, I'm here for you. I'm working."
Day 11: I debated whether I ought to write this next entry. I decided that it might feel a bit like TMI, but for a woman it is important information. Today I started my period. That is important because for one, it may explain why I felt a bit emotional a couple days ago, rather than a looming infection. Also, it's good to know that our bodies, or at least my body, did not stop working from shock or something. It's not a big deal. I feel relatively normal, so it was no more a hassle than any other month. I must admit, however, that every month I have almost zero symptoms. No cramping, generally no tender emotions ... I was just looking for any possible symptom connected with the healing of the surgery. I am very lucky.
Day 12: I haven't been wearing anything but jammies. It helps to remind me (and others) that my place and business is recovering, whatever I look or feel like on the outside. Also, I have been nervous about putting any elastic or other waistline on my belly or across my scabbed incisions. Today I wore leggings ... the kind meant to be worn as pants. Not jeggings, but a stretchier material, black and has small zippers and decoration on it. It was surprisingly comfortable. The waistline went over my belly, but also pulled everything in tight-ish without making me uncomfortable.
Day 13: In the morning my belly looks normal, but within 15 minutes of getting up out of bed, body water gathers between my navel and large scar in the bikini area. It continues to gather throughout the day, so that by the time I retire to bed at night I look like I have a stomach to exercise off. As I touch my belly, it is both tender (which means I feel something, even if it is a little uncomfortable) and numb. Other than that I feel quite normal.
I feel like I ought to be able to get up and do whatever. I feel a little foolish when people do things for me that I feel like I should be doing myself. Ever since I got home, I eat my meals at the dining table. After eating, I handwash my plate, silverware, and glass. Just my own. Today I saw maybe 5 place settings in the sink... a very small load, and decided that I ought to do them, rather than leaving them up to my mom. I was surprised that it takes so much muscle to wash such a small load of dishes that weren't even heavy dishes. Just the movement of my arms along with holding the items to wash was enough.
Honestly, probably almost everybody I know wouldn't care and would do a little housework anyway, proving to themselves and others that they can do it. However, I want to be sure that I heal the right way the first time, without taking risks, no matter how small I think they may be. I can see why I had been warned by the doctor and by friends that come about the second week I will feel like I ought to be doing more, but I would have to remember to stay down, because although the outside of me feels fine, the inside of me is still recovering and should not be strained. The doctor said that carrying a gallon of milk is more than he wants me to do for the first six weeks. I don't feel like I'm making excuses. I feel like I am being smart by following their advice to a better recovery.
Day 14: I feel fine, strong, and well. I feel like I have been living a cliche' affirmation, "I am healthy and strong, and each day I feel better and better." Tomorrow marks 2 weeks since surgery. The next day is my 2 week appointment. The following day my parents leave to return to their home in another state. I can't believe it's done. Well, my recovery isn't finished, as I still have 4 more weeks to go, but the fact that I have had surgery to remove one of my kidneys to give to my friend....the surgery happened, with almost no effort on my part. On one hand it was a big enough deal that it involved many people. On the other hand, I almost feel like it was an alien abduction. I fell asleep and woke up the next day with mysterious cuts on my stomach. Other than those cuts and the waterbag stomach, I feel no different than normal. I acknowledge that it took the effort of many people (and hydrocodone pills) for it to feel this way, but I feel like this has been so easy. Removing a body part shouldn't feel this easy, but I am grateful for it.
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